Sometimes You Can Make it On Your Own

Was having a chat with a friend yesterday over MSN. It started off about us talking about how we're both old and single, and led to this: ( in all it's unedited glory well except for the pretty colours):

[11:40:50 AM] eikachu©: it's like everything i do now is preparing for a single life
[11:41:02 AM] eikachu©: learning to just count on myself
[11:41:18 AM] I love animals, they taste great!: dependant before interdependance
[11:41:46 AM] eikachu©: but i know i like my dependence
[11:41:57 AM] eikachu©: and i don't know if i want to share my life
[11:42:18 AM] eikachu©: cause u know once u been single long enough...u develop ur own routines
[11:42:22 AM] eikachu©: and habits
[11:42:33 AM] eikachu©: and less tolerant to things
[11:42:54 AM] I love animals, they taste great!: but then you figure out who you are
[11:42:58 AM] I love animals, they taste great!: what you like, what you don't like
[11:43:10 AM] I love animals, they taste great!: that way, when you find someone, you won't want to change them
[11:43:32 AM] eikachu©: ur right...
[11:43:43 AM] eikachu©: i am figuring out who i am
[11:4:04 AM] I love animals, they taste great!: you shouldn't go into a relationship not knowing who you are
[11:44:11 AM] eikachu©: that is true
[11:44:15 AM] I love animals, they taste great!: because then if you find out who you are LATER when you're in a serious relationhsip....

It's ok when you're younger to get into relationships not knowing who you are. After all, it may help with the self-discovery process. However, I believe that if you have an oppurtunity to stand on your own two feet first without anyone helping you up, that's a much better time to start a relationship. That way, when you do find someone that catches your attention, they will be complimenting your life instead of supplementing your life. Well, that's how it should start anyway. I know well enough that sometimes, that someone you find, is that someone that completes you. But when it comes to matters of the heart, as well all know we bets are off. Anyway, this isn't a rule that should be followed to the letter. Some of the best relationships are found when you're lost and confused and you find someone that is your guiding light. But I think those are exceptions to the rule. Anyway, I'm just trying to say that if you know you need time to heal, if you know if you have issues to work out, if you know you have some home repairs to do... yah, you know what I'm trying to say.

"Loneliness - If you find yourself struggling with loneliness, you're not alone, and yet you are alone. So very alone." - Quote from Demotivators

Swimming Through My Oceans

Just wanted to write a thank you the people who keep coming back to this mess called a blog and keep punishing yourselves by reading its contents. Thank you for bludgeoning through my thoughts, crawling through these words... I know I've been slacking recently, haven't been posting as much. But like I've said before, I can only write when inspired. I'm not one to bore you with the details of what I do day to day. Instead I bore you with what I think are thoughts I should put to writing. You guys deserve some sort of praise as most people wouldn't have made it past the first 3 sentences of this post. If you haven't yet noticed, I've added a cbox to my sidebar. Go ahead, spam away in there. Just remember I have the right to delete anything I find unfunny and uninformative, haha. Ok seriously, I'll just delete the shit that I find rude or of absolutely no value.

Ok, so you've made it this far. You are persistent aren't you? Here's you reward, a poem I wrote a looooong time ago for someone who was very dear to me:

Best Friends

Like the cool, refreshing summer rains,
I'll be there to ease your aches and pains.
Wipe away those bitter tears, I'm here to chase away your fears.
Like the bright and shining sun, I will be your number one.
There's never a need to run and hide,
For I will be there always, by your side.
Like a hard and protective shell,
I will shield you from this world's hell.
And our friendship shall ne'er grow cold,
For our friendship, high, I shall ever hold.
I know we'll be friends for life and after,
Sharing all our mem'ries and laughter.

And to my dearest friend I toast:
To our friendship evermore we drink,
In a sea of trouble we'll never drown,
For our friendship, is a ship that will never sink.

- Sunrise Seeker

"Friends pick us up when we fall, and if they cannot, they lie down beside us and listen for a while" - Anonymous

Keep Your Eye Off the Prize

Quite often people have a grand plan to do something but quite often never get around to it because they think that it's too far away so they never begin the journey. This has often come up in my life because people are asking me how to keep fit or lose weight. I tell them "Even a journey of a thousand miles begins with the first few small steps." Some people are too focused on the large goal to see the intermediate steps in between and get discouraged enough to not even take the steps. I know most of you already know this, but it begs reiteration: Larger goals are accomplished by setting smaller goals. Take the huge leap forward you want to make and break it down into smaller, "within sight, within reach", bunny hops. For example when I run 10K, I don't start the run by saying ok, "let's do this 10K!" I take a long run like that 1 kilometer at a time. Sometimes it's good to actually lose focus and just do something without thinking to much about it.

My quote for this entry is already in there. So yah, imma cheat this post and just say read the white bolded words in quotes.