Sorry

Here is my apology, to everyone and anyone I've ever hurt, fucked up, or otherwise have given a sad day to. Most of these people have probably forgotten about past transgressions, or else forgiven me for them, but to those people that haven't, and I guess to even those who have forgotten/forgiven, listen up...

I'm sorry.

I was going to start this paragraph by saying that this isn't some sad attempt to relieve my conscience, but you know what? I ain't gonna lie, it is. Yes, this is some pathetic stab to relieve the guilt I sometimes feel when I take a step back and look at the string of events that has become my past. Yes, this is a sad try and set right my karma. I've done things I'm not proud of, I've made mistakes, I've hurt people, some very badly, but none with intent. I'm not perfect, and as much as I strive to be, I'm not. There were some of you though who deserved it. But even though my actions were not bred from malice, I am still sorry. Not sorry for hurting you explicitly, but sorry that you hurt me so much that I did not care that I caused you pain, or that I did what I did to start a new chapter in my life without you in its pages. I hope that you can find it in your hearts, maybe sometime in the future, to forgive me. And if by chance, if you are someone that I have wronged in the past, and do not feel this written apology is enough, write a comment with a way I can contact you and we can talk about whatever stupid thing I did. Your comments do not show up publicly until they are screened by me so if you wish to remain off my blog I will delete your comments.

"Draw from your past, but do not let your past draw from you." - Quote from Stargate Atlantis

P.S. lying in bed last night, I remembered that there was one person that I DID intentionally hurt, and I am NOT sorry for that. She deserved it. She hurt my friends, the people I care about. Justice was served.